This is probably one of my darkest writes. I wrote this poem back in 2004 during a very difficult time in my life. I ached for the people around me to understand how hard it was to exist in the state I was in, but I realized they didn’t. And how could they? So I turned inward and fought a daily battle of emotionally dying and then pulling myself together and trying to live. Those years were my worst, but I’ve come out the other side where the sun shines so much brighter and have found peace with the demons inside. I’m posting this for those of you who haven’t found peace, to let you know it’s possible. I know it is, because I did it.
~ Nikki Anne Schmutz